If You Ever Get Lost

by Mariuk

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about

If we only pay attention to social media, it might seem like I've been quiet for a while but the reality is that making this record has taken me two struggling years while I was also intensely touring, releasing a bunch of music videos and two more albums with my other music project (Northwest), besides releasing various singles and an EP as Mariuk. I want you to know whtIt's crazy to think that almost 4 years ago I didn't know anything about music production. In this time, I have learnt a lot about music theory, music production, sound engineering, creating a business from ground zero and what self-discipline really means. I've also had a lot of time to think and to know myself. This record is the result of all of that. I believe that, in some way, it has healed me from a lot of s**t I've been carrying around for years, it almost feels like a catharsis. I know it's not perfect and I'm already thinking about about how to make a way better record soon, but I've poured my soul into these songs (as cheesy as it sounds) and I love them. I hope you like them too.

Thank you all for being there on the other side. Ever since I was a teen I've always wanted to belong somewhere and I never felt that way until I started making music and connecting with people through this magical language that, more often than not, goes beyond and deeper than words. And I want you to know that I feel so f***ng good and grateful that you're here with me, even when I feel self-doubt and the impostor syndrome (which is very often haha).

Anyway, all I'm trying to say is: thank you and I'm going to make a lot of awesome music, this is just only the beggining (insert smily demon emoji here). Let's do it 🤘
I love u,
Mariuk

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released October 23, 2019

Lyrics, vocals, instruments, production, engineering and mixing by Mariuk
Mastering and guitars in "Catch Me If You Can" by Ignacio Simón
Lithuanian poems by Anelė Juodaitytė
Totemic Animal by Ignacio Simón
Artwork:
Photos by Ignacio Hergueta
Makeup by Julia Santolaya
Illustrations, editing and graphic design by Mariuk

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Track Name: Echo
Am I a voice or am I an echo?
Am I the lightning or am I the thunder?
Who's the one writing my story?
Am I deceiving myself thinking I freely choose the jail?
But why do I need to be punished after all?
Am I confusing pleasure with pain?

Am I a voice or am I an echo?
Am I the lightning or am I the thunder?
Am I walking away by staying?
Am I giving up by giving in?

Am I a voice or am I an echo?
Tell me, am I still waiting for someone to take the lead?
Am I still waiting in the dark
when I'm the only one holding a light?

Am I a voice or am I an echo?
Am I the lightning or am I the thunder?
Am I walking away by staying?
Am I giving up by giving in?

Am I a voice or am I an echo?
Track Name: The Sound I Was Looking For
This is a road I’ve never walked before
and even though I’m obviously insecure
I try to look as confident as I can
for there is always evil waiting for innocence
and there’s nothing more satisfying than
proving everybody wrong

I may not have wings to fly as high as you can
but I have two legs to walk and road ahead
so I’m gonna walk

now watch me

I hate to think nature is my master
and so I try to master my nature
for it is known there is an extra room to play
if you unlock the door to the king’s head
and there’s nothing more satisfying than
proving everybody wrong

I may not have wings to fly as high as you can
but I have two legs to walk and road ahead
so I’m gonna walk

now watch me
Track Name: Sunglasses
I put sunglasses between you and I
so I can see your eyes but you cannot see mine
so you cannot read my mind
and realize how scared I am

I tried to understand the game
that everyone knows how to play
Truth is I've been trying all my life
but I never seem to get it right

It looks so cool, it looks so careless
You say whatever's in your mind and it works
but I'm constantly calculating
how to act as normal as possible
in your world

I look at you from a safe distance
like someone watching a reality show
Deep inside I wish I was part of the scene, the gang
or whatever you and your friends have going on

I tried to understand the game
that everyone knows how to play
Truth is I've been trying all my life
but I never seem to get it right

It looks so cool, it looks so careless
You say whatever's in your mind and it works
but I'm constantly calculating
how to act as normal as possible
in your world
Track Name: Famous
Do I even have something to say
worth the attention?
Do I even want to share the stage
with the rest of the clowns?

Sometimes I feel so alone
in this room full of noise
Everybody wants to be famous
and I don’t know who I am anymore

Maybe I’m just too short
people can’t see me and I can’t see the show
Maybe I’m just too weird
or just too ordinary

Sometimes I feel so alone
in this room full of noise
Everybody wants to be famous
and I don’t know who I am anymore

And I wish I didn’t care
but I do
Track Name: Time
Another trip, another lesson to learn
I think it’s better to say yes and then regret
than to say no but never forget what I left behind

Oh time, take these memories with you
like you did with his
You erased me from his mind
like footprints on the sand

Another night, another battle to fight
between irreconcilable differences
(In) my mind won’t let me forget what I left behind

Oh time, take these memories with you
like you did with his
You erased me from his mind
like footprints on the sand

Oh time, you’re like the sea
and I’m just footprints on the sand
Track Name: The Sword (feat. Anelė Juodaitytė)
Call me ugly, call me pretty
I no longer care

If I’m just a body floating in the space
then tell me why should I feel ashamed?

Call me girl, call me boy
I’m not into any role

Call me young, call me old
time is an illusion after all

(įkvėptas tamsosios pusės
niekad dar nesijaučiau toks gyvas
tačiau pažemintas ir sudraskytas
niekad dar nesijaučiau toks gyvas)

Let me feel like I’m out of control

(tačiau pažemintas ir sudraskytas
niekad dar nesijaučiau toks gyvas)

I will fight day and night
‘cuz freedom’s worth every punch

All my flaws, all my darks
they were yours and now they’re mine
In my hands they turned to swords
and with them I’ll win the war

Let me feel like I’m out of control

kiek kartų sakyti žodžiai
neturi reikšmės ir nieko nereiškia
kiek kartų galvotos mintys
išblėsta, išnyksta ir išgaruoja
kiek kartų sapnuoti sapnai
pranyksta lyg saulei nušvitus
Track Name: Your Dress
It took some time
but I’ve finally realized
what a fool I made of myself
trying to fit in your dress
trying to behave
trying to be someone else

It took some time
but I finally broke all the mirrors
in order to find myself beautiful
I swear I’d rather live naked
than spend one more day
trying to fit in your dress

It took some time
but I’m finally unlearning
all the lessons you left in my skin
Scars that remind me that
I’d rather live naked
than spend one more day
trying to fit in your dress

Your dress
(trying to behave)
Your dress
(trying to be someone else)
Your dress
(trying to fit in your dress)
Your dress
(trying to behave)
Your dress
(trying to be someone else)
Track Name: Catch Me If You Can
I wave at you
you make me so confused
Why don’t you tell me what should I do?

Give me Jolene
something I’ve never seen
Why don’t you tell me what do you mean?

I hear you walk into the room at night
but when I look up you’re gone

And you whisper:
If you want to see me dance
catch me if you can

If you could see
you are my only queen
Together we can make it big

I hear you walk into the room at night
but when I look up you’re gone

And you whisper:
If you want to see me dance
catch me if you can
Track Name: Simon
Ever since we've been together
I have counted every hair in your head
and I've measured every inch of your body
but I feel I don't know you yet
I don't know you yet

And ever since we've been together
You've told me all your childhood and teenage stories
And I've heard all of deepest secrets
but I feel I don't know you yet
I don't know you yet

I want to know you for the rest of my life
Oh let me know you as long as it lasts

I don't know you yet
Track Name: If You Ever Get Lost Again
Remember how it hurt
the first time they left
Look at you now
you’ve come so far
now you’re the one leaving them behind
You used to cry
now it makes you laugh
to see the time go by

If you ever get lost again
you know exactly where to find yourself

You used to talk
not saying much
now in silence you thrive
like when you were a child
Maybe it’s just not going away
but coming back

If you ever get lost again
you know exactly where to find yourself

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